Valentine's Day

I loathe Valentine's Day. This should be no surprise to anyone who knows me or has read previous Valentine's Day entries. I willinging admit it is because it depresses me because it serves only to remind me and other singles that we are without love in our lives.

It should rightly be called Singles Identification Day, as one of my co-worker's suggested. I can just imagine all you happily paired off people reading this and saying 'she's just bitter cause she's alone.' If you look at the larger picture here you would understand that no one likes to be singled out and recognized for being different and that is what Valentine's Day does.

We live in a society in which, love is such a valued commodity, that if you don't have it in your life you are considered deficient. People assume that everyone worth or deserving of love already has it and if you don't have it, it's because you don't deserve it.

I can finally say that I no longer believe this, but I will say that I did. I know there is nothing wrong with me as a person. I am just as worthy of being loved as every married friend of mine. I will find someone to love who will love me back.

In order to combat my usual bad feelings towards Valentine's Day I decided to do something that would make me feel better about it. I thought back to when I was a kid and how much I loved Valentine's Day and tried to recall what made it so great. Well as a child we gave Valentine's cards to everyone. My Mom used to bake large heart shaped chocolate chip cookies and my sister and I would decorate them. So I emailed my Dad and asked him to send me the recipe.

Last night I made 6 of the cookies and decorated them while I watched American Idol, for lack of better programming. I saved one for Auntie Carol and I brought the rest to work. Since I'm in earlier than everyone else I was able to leave them on co-worker's desks without them knowing. By noon they had all figured out where they had come from though.

Doing that made me feel SO much better about this day. The smiles on everyone's faces made this day for me. I haven't felt this good about V day since I was 12. It actually surprised me how good it made me feel.

It's a good day now. I don't need chocolates or roses. I wouldn't mind chocolate covered strawberries and champagne though! Hmmm and I even have someone in mind that I'd like to share those with. There's always next year.